Jesus says, ‘Whoever is not with me is against me;
and whoever does not gather with me scatters.’
I sometimes feel that my life is like scrubland,
halfway between garden and desert.
I sometimes feel that I live in a world of twilight,
halfway between day and night.
I sometimes feel like lukewarm water, halfway between hot and cold.
I sometimes feel that I am in a state of indifference
halfway between love and hate.
I sometimes feel I am trudging along a safe little path
halfway between good and evil.
Lord, save me from illusion
that because I am not against you, I am therefore for you.
Above all, save me from being neutral.